(Digging for Harvey's quotes, most likely you'll have tons of them mirroring my point, but cocky statements tend to be ignored by cowards, or they don't seem to reach that state of mind to comprehend all that)
It's time again to write myself something. Yeah, not for everybody, but myself. How arrogant this one is to have typed such thing? You may ask. But I do appreciate the people who happen to like me and my work because... as far as I know, they do not go for the obvious. They know the truth is not very attractive, but decide to hang in there. They've been wanting something unpretentious.
Yes, I'm creating a new reality. As my friend once shared with me his thought, things exist when you think/believe they do. No better time to fit myself in right here and right now.
Obsessed with lawyerly TV dramas, The Good Wife or Suits (win me back by the end of its season 5), I've been thinking maybe, just maybe, I should get a degree in law. Not of an impulsive idea, this has been on my mind for a year or so. Do it while I still can? When I'm still young to start all over again? But just as the magical transition we all experienced when we shifted from primary school to secondary school, when we went from the biggest in one place to the most insignicant in another, the nature of lives is of turbulence. While from a distance watching and observing, you see a cycle. An ever-changing environment following the same old pattern.
That is life. I do not want to end up like many in this pathetic society which has an unbelievable motto that you should go by the book even though it's not going to benefit you in any way, because "this is how the world works". Yes, I'm down the road making some reckless, insane moves in my life. I need control of my life, and I'm asking myself for that, but not from anyone else. After all, I should not have made my boyfriend as an excuse/imaginary handcuff for avoiding my fear for that matter. One on me, for the record.
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